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[Jul. 30th, 2007|03:39 pm] |
Derek got home from his mission on Thursday. He's really the last of my friends to come home. I forgot how much we click. I think the older you get the more you realize how valuable good friends are.
Danielle, Mattie, Mitch, Jill and I went to the home-comming and guess who was there? J-rad. It was actually really good to see him. He walked in late and we waved him over to sit down. I started to feel a little awkward but I just made up my mind to be nothing but excited to see him and then it wasn't awkward at all (I talked to Zach about this later and he basically said it usually takes 2 to create an awkward situation).
Anyways, we got to talk for a little bit and I found out all about his fiance. They actually met at 1-800 Contacts! Just like me and Zach. LOL! We talked about all of our inside jokes and laughed at Danielle. It was just really good to see him and to see him so happy. I really hadn't seen him that happy since before he left for the mission.
I also kind of had an epiphany of sorts. He's been dating this girl for over a year and I guess she actually got a mission call a few months after they started dating and went to the MTC. Well, once there she realized she'd made a mistake and came home. When Jared left on his mission I BEGGED him not to go. I knew that if he left we'd lose each other. I don't know how I knew, I just did. It was the darkest time of my life and I hope to never go through loss like that again. Anyways, Jared is a totally different person now. He's got drive and ambition and I just don't think he would have those qualities had he not completed his mission. So basically it was necessary for him to go so that he could become a man. If he would have come home to me we would probably be together now but he wouldn't be the same person he is now, I wouldn't be the same person I am now and life would be harder.
I'm glad he has someone who gave up her mission for him. From my perspective it shows her commitment to him and that's what he deserves. I guess in a way my heart aches a little for what we lost but at the same time it's full because I'm married to the most amazingly sexy, romantic guy who takes care of me and Jared has finally found someone who makes his life worth living as well.
I guess I just need to learn that everything works itself out in the end and not to stress so much about controlling the world around me. All I can do is make the best choices I can and have a good time along the way. |
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